All of It....

I don’t have time for cancer. It’s all consuming. It may sound crazy but honestly who has time?

I am a mama and I work outside the home too. My daughter goes to school and she dances. There is laundry, lunches, and so many forms due on so many days! And I write it all down but then I forget.

And then I try to educate myself on cancer, what to eat and not eat… and it’s expensive, but then you make your best effort, and then you decide to save money and you slide, but then you remember that it is your life at stake and you realize you better figure this out.

And then you have other factors in life fighting against you that you cannot control…. so you try to practice your mindfulness. YOU PRAY…. you remind yourself that God will take care of you and it’s okay…

But then you realize you are really going to have to learn how to be calm in the storm… because prayers don’t stop the storms, they just give you courage… but sometimes it doesn’t feel like enough…

And in all your time praying you realize you didn’t drink any water today, you have not worked out because you are still looking for the perfect gentle exercise, and you skipped a day in your 21 day gratitude journal transformation…. so back to day 1.

In the meantime you didn’t turn in those super important forms, and you are so angry at yourself for not getting your organization correct.

And then you definitely need more coffee because you think that may help….

but then you look at your TO DO list and you think…. “I don’t have time for cancer.”

and you just keep doing the best that you can.

AMEN