Head Start
/I used to wish
transplant had occurred
not on the 30th but the 31st…
to parallel my start
with a new beginning around the world
but then
today
I realized something.
Maybe
God gave me a head start
You know, like a Day 1
before the rest of the world
woke with their own
intentions -
A
moment that was
mine
a day to myself
… little did I know how many
days I would have
in transpant
how many days
in the unknown
days that no
one knew -
it was an abyss
and that pain
it was impenetrable
like a soul without a body
New Years Eve
my day 1…
an every day
reminder
of all that is me
of why it matters
of what it is
never mind
the pulse
of survival
it’s the
miracle
of
what it
meant
because nothing
went right.
I did not eat
and I did not
smile
But
I did want to live
and I did
fight
though
everything was fog
and I
was flying free -
a soul without
a body
for a short time
no one knew
there weren’t any
answers
just faith
and pain
so much pain
little did
I know
the strength
it would give me
or how it
prepared me
for what was
to come
little did I ever think
Cancer
would ever be part
of my life
I turned in
my membership
quit the club
and lived….
little did I know
i was granted a
lifetime
pass,
But here
i am
Day 1
little did I know
how absolutely
unbelievable
my life would be
that I would
have
a miracle child
and be
granted the
honor of
being her
mother
or that
i would be gifted
with fa amily
who continues to
believe in me
despite
the fact
that nothing has
gone the way
I thought it may
and
little did i know
the veil
of the spiritual realm
was so thin
and that
my connection
would stay so strong.
May I always
celebrate
Day 1
AMEN
