Stella's Mama

The truth is that no matter how much we want to control our health or prevent bad things from happening in our life, we just can’t.

That said, to use my daughter’s words, we do have “great opportunity” to take care of ourselves. And maybe I haven’t always done that.

But, I don’t think that we create our own illness. That is a belief system, it’s just not mine. I feel like it assumes that we are in complete control of the chaos that is life.

I feel like if I were to take this belief system into my heart - it would change everything I have ever believed about prayer, about humanity, about existence itself.

Maybe if I were only looking at myself… maybe if I was focused solely on me… maybe I could find myself accepting this belief…maybe.

But then I look at the world. And I cannot possibly fathom it.

That said…

I do believe in prayer. I do believe in accepting graces. And… I do believe in our stories. I believe it’s how we are all interconnected. Because we all have stories.

Your story unfolds everyday and enriches someone’s life.

Your story is your body, mind, and soul narrative. It’s the depth of your voice. It’s the tone of you.

I don’t believe we are in complete control of everything in life.

We CAN tell our own story.

I am Stella’s mama.

Everything in my life aligned for this.

She is the miracle of my story.

God called me so near to her that for 5+ years I ended my practice to be only with her. In this next experience of life, letting go of cancer, I realize I am not only meant to share this story, but to practice it as well.

I realize that Stella’s mama is Grace Girl.

I’m not even entirely sure what that means. It’s a process not an end.

Amen to listening to the Holy Spirit… and Amen to following a path not quite set.

Amen to surrendering to such path… and one really, really big and HOLY AMEN.