Sunrise Stories...

10 days till surgery and I am not sure what I am thinking... 

I think I am too inward to be aware of my thoughts right now...

I am not watching the stream anymore.

I am in it.

I am feeling it, embracing it and experiencing it. 

I think I am nesting... preparing for the unknown but aware of how I may want to feel. How I may want to take care of myself. I'm not distracted or staying busy. 

I do still have a few things on my to do list though.

I'm not sure if my daughter's dance shoes still fit... she definitely needs new tights before team orientation and dance camp. With more dances and more shoes... she probably needs a bigger dance bag... hmmm. So I will try to take care of this today, That will be fun... and it makes me a little part of her first week back at dance that I will otherwise miss. 

I know it's cliche to say she is growing up so fast... but I cannot help but think it. I mean for all you Target shoppers, it means that we are almost out of the Cat and Jack toddler section. Who thought that was ever going to happen? 

That's okay. She still loves unicorns and mermaids and squishes so ...

I just looked at the time for the first "time" this morning and its 7:07.

So I have to interrupt myself. 

I have a thing with numbers... well I don't per se. But I do find the Holy Spirt converses with me through numbers... which is ironic because math is not my thing, but numbers as a language? I love this. 

Today is 7/7 and He had me tune into His presence at 7:07. Yesterday... while thinking about my surgery (on the 17th) and also the Holy Spirit - I happened to look at the page number of a book I was reading... only to see that I was on the 17th page. 

It could seem random... only it isn't. I tried to pretend it was for years. Like of course I am making too much of it. But then it just happened more and more and very specifically.

So now I just know. And I am grateful.

So like I said, I am nesting... and I am also streaming these thoughts... and they are a little scattered... but I am okay with that, because I want to see my thoughts. 

And right now, I am not editing... because right now.. I am nesting. 

And this post is ending and its 7:21. My birthday. Thank you HS