Fearless Faith...

WELL… sometimes. Like TODAY.

SO this is my obligatory infusion photo (to myself)… yes… I am deep into the grounds of transformation.

Ever be it still
Ever be it now
Like I’ve seen before…
Couldn’t know it then
As I am
This… ( time ) -
In kindness,
I can see
in TRUTH…
I still exist
a reflection isn’t real
without, the weight of me -
and in this light
His Glory

divine…

never mine and never more
Fearless Faith

Today was supposed to be infusion number six.

True to form - that is, the way the Holy Spirit and I roll -

PLANS CHANGED.

My counts are dangerously low for chemo and I am receiving a blood transfusion instead.

…And sometimes

I may feel defeated, annoyed, or even self doubting by such an obstacle.

but I have to say that RIGHT NOW… I AM FEARLESS.

Maybe it’s because my two babies in heaven keep giving my signs… maybe it’s because I have so many amazing prayer warriors… maybe it’s because I am trusting the Holy Spirit’s language… maybe its being in complete surrender and falling even deeper…

and maybe, just maybe it’s REMEMBERING THAT -

I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES.

And… of course, that is why all the above is coming through AND…

I’m feeling transformed… so when I heard the news today….

I didn’t feel a setback… I didn’t feel like my plans were altered… I didn’t even feel upset by low counts…

GOD IS HERE RIGHT NOW …. A PERSONAL VISIT…. A REMINDER OF HIS PRESENCE

Yesssssss…… it’s HIS PLAN.

Because in a way… when things go according to plan… it’s easy to feel alone.

But when God takes His personal time… to remind me that He’s got this…

WELL…. THAT GIVES ME CHILLS.

Of course God shows up for us always….

BUT…. when He goes out of His way to remind me… I feel awesomely blessed.